So it looks like I’m a little bit of a smoker now which I’m not really happy about but my anxiety is so high…it helps. I just have to keep it from my family.
Also, I’m worried about my friend because he’s having a hard time and I’m used to ME not having an easy time but I’m not used to my friends having a hard time and I want to wave a magic wand and fix it but I can’t. It’s horrible. Plus I don’t want him to leave school because he thinks he’s not cut out for it because it’s just not true. Everyone’s having a hard time with work. I am. AND he’s one of the only people who I am almost entirely anxiety and depression free when I’m hanging out with him and it’s like I’m really genuinely happy and that is SO RARE. I’m freaking out over what happens if he leaves because I can’t make someone stay if they’re miserable just because I need them. That’s really selfish.